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First Person: Why I decided to come out to my second-grade students

The first time someone made fun of me is a vivid memory seared into my brain.

I was in second grade, just like the students I’m teaching now, and another student told me I was more like a girl than a boy. She decided my name would be Michelle Patricia. She danced around me singing it over and over until I cried, and then, frustrated at the absence of help, slammed my head repeatedly into the concrete wall.

It’s been almost two decades since that time, and I still remember it.

I heard about the terror attack in Orlando early the next morning, and after the initial shock, I remembered this instance from almost 20 years ago. I remembered the first time my father told me he wouldn’t love me if I was gay. I remembered a classmate calling me the “F-word” in high school. I remembered praying every night of my adolescence for something inside of me to change and be normal.

I remembered it all. But most of all I remembered that first instance. I remembered it the way a city remembers a hurricane. And I knew I must do something.

I decided at my last job that out-ness (or being publicly gay) would no longer be a question at the place I worked, because it’s such a significant part of my identity. Achievement First has provided such a warm and hospitable environment that I never felt unsafe sharing this part of my identity, even in my interview. But for some reason, it’s always been something I’ve kept private from students.

I wasn’t sure how to tell them, or when, or even if I should. But when I was seven and confused and slamming my head against the wall because my classmates didn’t understand me, I wish I’d had one person I could turn to. My students deserve to have someone.

I decided to no longer be passively in the closet, but to do what is right. I came out.

We watched the film adaptation of “The Bravest Knight Who Ever Lived” (a fairy tale in which the main character, a boy, marries a prince at the end) and discussed what we already knew about gay people. Then I shared part of my identity with them. It was difficult, and not everyone was super excited. But we hugged and talked through what it meant to be a member of the LGBT community today in America.

Afterward, we discussed the events that occurred in Orlando. My students wanted to write notes to the victims’ families and surviving victims still hospitalized or healing. Their minds went right to compassion and action, which is what makes this work so amazing.

I came out because my LGBT students deserve to know someone else like them is out there. I came out because I could no longer let gay people be people who exist in parallel lives to our students. And I came out because I know that truly preparing our kids for success in college and beyond means preparing them to develop and maintain relationships with people who look different, sound different, love different, smell different, eat different, or have any difference within the gamut of human experience. I’m thankful to work in an environment that supports me and helps our students be more aware, supportive, and excited about differences between people.

This piece was first published on Achievement First’s blog.

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Two fewer testing days in New York? Thank goodness. Here’s what else our students need

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Every April, I feel the tension in my fifth-grade classroom rise. Students are concerned that all of their hard work throughout the year will boil down to six intense days of testing — three for math and three for English language arts.

Students know they need to be prepared to sit in a room for anywhere from 90 minutes to three hours with no opportunity to leave, barring an emergency. Many of them are sick to their stomachs, feeling more stress than a 10-year-old ever should, and yet they are expected to perform their best.

Meanwhile, teachers are frustrated that so many hours of valuable instruction have been replaced by testing, and that the results won’t be available until students are moving on to other classrooms.

This is what testing looks like in New York state. Or, at least it did. Last month, state officials voted to reduce testing from three days for each subject to two, to the elation of students, parents, and teachers across New York. It’s an example of our voices being heard — but there is still more to be done to make the testing process truly useful, and less stressful, for all of us.

As a fifth-grade teacher in the Bronx, I was thrilled by the news that testing time would be reduced. Though it doesn’t seem like much on paper, having two fewer days of gut-wrenching stress for students as young as eight means so much for their well-being and education. It gives students two more days of classroom instruction, interactive lessons, and engagement in thought-provoking discussions. Any reduction in testing also means more time with my students, since administrators can pull teachers out of their classrooms for up to a week to score each test.

Still, I know these tests provide us with critical data about how students are doing across our state and where we need to concentrate our resources. The changes address my worries about over-testing, while still ensuring that we have an objective measure of what students have learned across the state.

For those who fear that cutting one-third of the required state testing hours will not provide teachers with enough data to help our students, understand that we assess them before, during, and after each unit of study, along with mid-year tests and quizzes. It is unlikely that one extra day of testing will offer any significant additional insights into our students’ skills.

Also, the fact that we receive students’ state test results months later, at the end of June, means that we are more likely to have a snapshot of where are students were, rather than where they currently are — when it’s too late for us to use the information to help them.

That’s where New York can still do better. Teachers need timely data to tailor their teaching to meet student needs. As New York develops its next generation of tests and academic standards, we must ensure that they are developmentally appropriate. And officials need to continue to emphasize that state tests alone cannot fully assess a student’s knowledge and skills.

For this, parents and teachers must continue to demand that their voices are heard. Until then, thank you, New York Regents, for hearing us and reducing the number of testing days.

In my classroom, I’ll have two extra days to help my special needs students work towards the goals laid out in their individualized education plans. I’ll take it.

Rich Johnson teaches fifth grade at P.S. 105 in the Bronx.

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My high school told me to apply to 100 colleges — and I almost lost myself in the process

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High schools have become obsessed with “million-dollar scholars,” and it’s hurting students.

Across Memphis, students often are pushed by counselors to apply to as many colleges as possible — as many as 100 — all to push students to reach that million-dollar scholarship mark. The more dollars and college acceptance, the better!

I graduated in 2016, and my experience offers a case study.

I’m a pretty well-rounded individual: In high school, I was a finalist in the Let’s Innovate Through Education program and was able to launch SousChef-Memphis, a culinary nonprofit organization. I was a dual-enrollment student and took honors courses. I was committed to community service. I was vice president of my high school organization, Modern Distinctive Ladies. I was on the bowling team, managed the basketball team, and participated in debate forensics and drama.

I was also told by counselors to apply to 100 colleges. I was never told why that number was chosen, but my peers were told the same. We were often pulled out of class to complete these applications, which took away from instructional time — about an hour per day. My high school also ran on an infraction system, and not turning in college applications and other documents led to disciplinary actions.

The quality of those applications only shed a dim light on the student and person that I am. A hundred applications was never my goal. A hundred applications doesn’t measure the capability, intelligence or worth of me as a student. A hundred applications is just ridiculous!

Schools with similar approaches, though, get glowing media coverage. Meanwhile, a lot of that scholarship money is irrelevant, since a single student obviously can only attend one school.

I think that if I had been counseled properly, I would have had a better grasp on my high school-to-college transition. I ultimately chose to leave Memphis to attend another state university on a full scholarship. Looking back, that school was not the best fit for me. I returned to Memphis to attend our local public university.

A counselor never tried to determine what the absolute best school for me would be. I wasted a lot of time, money and resources trying to figure that out. And I almost lost myself in the process.

I was more than capable of getting back on track, and I did. But not every student can afford to go through what I went through.

High schools need to realize that, while students amassing millions of dollars in scholarships and hundreds of college acceptance letters seems like an accomplishment, the outcome for many students is the total opposite.

Too many students end up not going to a school that is the best fit for them, taking on piles of debt, and dropping out with no workforce experience.

The goal should be that each high school student will graduate having a grasp on their career path (and experience in that field), scholarships to the school of their choice (full rides or little to no debt), and be confident in where they will be spending the next four to six years of their life. Being thorough in the college search and submitting quality applications is what leads to a college that is the best fit for the student, obtaining scholarships, and ultimately graduating.

Here’s what I wish a counselor had told me:

"It is time to start thinking about quality over quantity. Quality counseling. Quality applications. And quality choices about what to do next."Anisah Karim

Try things you like, but don’t overload yourself. Look for summer internships that pay, rather than minimum-wage jobs. Build a network of people who can help you make good decisions about college and work. Research schools with a major you’re interested in, and find out what scholarships they offer. Keep an eye on your GPA and make sure you’re taking the classes you need to graduate. Apply for colleges when applications open and submit the FAFSA form in October.

And most importantly, through all four years of high school, don’t be afraid to ask for help.

It is time to start thinking about quality over quantity. Quality counseling. Quality applications. And quality choices about what to do next.

Anisah Karim is a psychology student at the University of Memphis. She plans to continue her education in speech pathology and otology and eventually start her own private practice. She also plans to launch two new business ventures in the fall and relaunch SousChef in the fall of 2018.